# Navigating the Tension Between Disagreement and Growth
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Chapter 1: The Dilemma of Disagreement
Should I engage with writers and subjects that irritate me? Recently, I found myself at odds with a story, leading to a response that, while not a full-blown rant, contained a hint of frustration. At times, I even go so far as to write a critical piece aimed at dismissing another's work.
A writer posed an insightful question, which I’ve paraphrased: "Alexei, I must say, your strong aversion to those discussing xyz is puzzling. Given your recent commentary, perhaps the solution is simple: just avoid reading it." This observation was valid, and I appreciated the gentle tone, prompting me to reflect.
As I mature — and by no means am I claiming to be old — I feel a growing inclination to focus on the more positive and serene aspects of existence. This isn't about adopting a naive, “let’s all get along” mindset, but rather about recognizing that my energy and creativity are better spent on pursuits that foster my growth rather than on disputes with others.
Nonetheless, I often find myself drawn into arguments.
Section 1.1: The Triggers of Discontent
I can justify my reactions. I tend to get particularly upset when someone asserts moral or intellectual superiority. This can apply to various topics, from politics and societal matters to everyday subjects like nutrition. Often, it’s not even about a direct claim of authority; sometimes, an overly condescending writing style is enough to set me off. For instance, a piece might proclaim, “I’ve given up coffee, and my life has transformed. If you're still drinking coffee, you're missing out.” While this example is fictional, it's not uncommon to encounter such narratives.
I see myself as mild-mannered and non-controversial, yet there’s a part of me — akin to the character Venom — that wants to shout, “Enough with your unsolicited opinions!”
Subsection 1.1.1: The Cycle of Frustration
I find myself in a contradictory state: feeling provoked while simultaneously choosing to engage. I don't block or unfollow those who irritate me; instead, I continue to read and respond, allowing negativity to seep in. I still check Umair's profile regularly, curious about his latest story variations that prominently feature the term "collapse."
Another example is my annoyance with individuals who become overly enthusiastic about the latest tech and business trends. Crypto! Metaverse! ChatGPT! I recognize this may come across as pretentious. Some trends are indeed revolutionary, and sharing experiences can be valuable. Yet, I can't help but feel irritated.
And let’s not even talk about posts like “Here are my Medium earnings for April.” While I’ve noticed fewer of these since I began writing, it still baffles me that some writers, even those with substantial followings, choose to share such content.
Section 1.2: Understanding My Reactions
I don’t believe my issue stems from ego. My aim isn't to assert that my perspective is the ultimate truth. However, I often feel compelled to dismiss the condescending tone that suggests, “I know better than you.” True expertise is rare on platforms like Medium, which is perfectly fine — there are plenty of valuable stories from non-experts.
In the end, I might frame my actions in a more flattering light. Even when I feel disagreement or frustration, I strive to remain open to different viewpoints. Though the likelihood of changing my mind is slim, that’s why I choose not to block or unfollow anyone. I don’t cancel people. However, perhaps I should consider refraining from commenting and engaging in debates.
Chapter 2: The Imagery of Conflict
When contemplating an image for this piece, I initially thought of dogs fighting:
Then, I considered cats fighting:
But then I wondered — how can anyone in their right mind argue that cats are superior to dogs? In my experience, dogs are far better companions. I genuinely mean it. I’ve owned numerous pets, including cats, yet my conclusion remains the same: dogs are simply superior. No debate needed.